Tuesday, 24 June 2014
Micro update... Day 110
Get in!. Over the moon and happy as Larry!. Not long in from my first bit of physical activity in what feels like aeons. It's been a while, roughly about 6 or 7 weeks since I last got some decent exercise in. Played a game of 5 a sides with some mates. Your boy lasted the full one and a half hours. Sweated mega buckets during the match. Only itched a couple of times. Some of the fellas asked what was up with my face (had some wounds from scratching) was straight up with them and explained what I'm going through without fishing for sympathy. They seemed to understand and were genuinely supportive.
Unfortunately while driving home I had a good scratch. However, not too much damage was done. As I'm sure some of you know by now, the toasting hot shower was orgasmic!. Will see how I feel in the morning - fingers crossed. Got another match invite for Wednesday evening... We shall see!.
More good news to share... Got two weeks annual leave off from work. Hopefully get some sun on the body while laying out the back.
Thanks for stopping by... hope your skin has been treating you good lately.
Gary
Sunday, 15 June 2014
Day 102...
Happy days... bit further into withdrawal now. My skin continues to go through the same cycle as I described in the
previous post... Dry skin, flake, feel the itch, scratch, weep/ooze
& repeat.
Remaining positive however... Started to sweat from day 99. I've heard this is a good thing as the body is "remembering" old habits and long may that continue. Sweating mostly at night, frustratingly it follows a intense itch fest that can't be helped to scratch for a good wee while. Energy levels are coming back too - YESSSSS!. This is a major boost for me!. Hopefully I'll be able to hit the gym and play footie again soon. It's been far too long. Something like six weeks since I last put my self through the paces of a decent, good old work out. Ironically, insomnia has entered my life again. Sleeping for two hours, toss turn (turn the pillow over to cold side,etc) sleep for an hour or two then scratch for a bit.
If I'm not working I'll sleep for a good portion of the afternoon. If working, when I come home I'll jump in a bath, get greased up, eat a couple of bananas then snooze for a bit. I try to stay up but the fatigue kicks my ass and I give in to it easily. I've learned to just listen to the body now as it knows what's more better for me than I do.
Had a massive flare on Day 90. My skin shows rapid healing but. It truly amazes me how quickly the skin can heal after having a bath and a couple of rest days. When ever I flare, I just think of healing up again in a few days time;)
So without further ado... have a cheeky peek at my "progress" below if you care to dare.
There you have it folks. 102 days are now behind me. Feeling great on the inside... I'm sure the outside isn't too far behind.
Happy healing hugs to you all! - keep going, we will get there in time.
Cheers,
Gary
Remaining positive however... Started to sweat from day 99. I've heard this is a good thing as the body is "remembering" old habits and long may that continue. Sweating mostly at night, frustratingly it follows a intense itch fest that can't be helped to scratch for a good wee while. Energy levels are coming back too - YESSSSS!. This is a major boost for me!. Hopefully I'll be able to hit the gym and play footie again soon. It's been far too long. Something like six weeks since I last put my self through the paces of a decent, good old work out. Ironically, insomnia has entered my life again. Sleeping for two hours, toss turn (turn the pillow over to cold side,etc) sleep for an hour or two then scratch for a bit.
If I'm not working I'll sleep for a good portion of the afternoon. If working, when I come home I'll jump in a bath, get greased up, eat a couple of bananas then snooze for a bit. I try to stay up but the fatigue kicks my ass and I give in to it easily. I've learned to just listen to the body now as it knows what's more better for me than I do.
Had a massive flare on Day 90. My skin shows rapid healing but. It truly amazes me how quickly the skin can heal after having a bath and a couple of rest days. When ever I flare, I just think of healing up again in a few days time;)
So without further ado... have a cheeky peek at my "progress" below if you care to dare.
| Day 90 - biggest facial flare to date :( |
| Day 90 |
| Day 90 - Left wrist |
| Day 90 - Right wrist |
| Day 94 - Amazing healing here :) |
| Day 96 |
| Day 96 - Old man arm time |
| Day 96 |
| Day 96 |
| Day 96 - Swelling much? |
| Day 96 |
| Day 96 |
| Day 96 - Elephant skin time |
| Day 102 - Lets have a laugh;) |
There you have it folks. 102 days are now behind me. Feeling great on the inside... I'm sure the outside isn't too far behind.
Happy healing hugs to you all! - keep going, we will get there in time.
Cheers,
Gary
Friday, 23 May 2014
Around the World of Skin Insanity in Eighty Days...
I've reached 80 days now. Ten days shy of Club 90 or the three month milestone...
I'm in full body withdrawal mode at present. My face strangely, has been the calmest part (having been the worst part) of my biggest organ for the past few days. The rest of my body mainly my neck, arms and legs are an evil shade of red with the added bonus of open wounds and flaky, dry skin.
Since I entered the "60's" stage of my withdrawal I have been pretty much bed ridden (if not at work). Energy levels were very low during this time. My body was aching and stiff while flaring up to three times per day. I listened to the body and just kept things on the down low during this phase of the withdrawal.
I live in epsom salt baths. Sometimes up to two per day, they're the bees knees, really can't champion them enough - highly recommend them if you too are going through this awfulness. If the itch gets to intense I'll jump in a smokin' hot shower to take care of it.
My skin has been going through a constant cycle of: dry - flake - flare - scratch - ooze - repeat. Going to bed I play the guessing game of what awaits my sight in the morning.
On that note, below are some images from Day 61 onwards.
PLEASE NOTE: The images below are... blah, blah. You know the drill by now;)
| Day 63 |
| Day 64 |
| Day 64 |
| Day 64 |
| Day 64 |
| Day 64 |
| Day 69 |
| Day 73 |
| Day 73 |
| Day 73 |
| Day 73 |
| Day 73 |
| Day 74 |
| Day 74 |
| Day 74 |
| Day 74 |
| Day 78 |
| Day 78 |
| Day 78 |
| Day 80 - Bit red but massive improvements! |
So there you have it. 80 days down x to go!. Some people heal within 6 month from topical steroid withdrawal. I'm not gonna be naive though. My target is 9 months to one year. That being said, we're all going down a road with no map or directions to the final destination. The final destination being normal, healthy skin. What ever it takes. I keep trucking on. WE keep trucking on.
Thanks again for stopping by.
Happy healing! - enjoy the long weekend.
Gary
Sunday, 4 May 2014
61 days in... the dryness has me
The dryness is spreading...
My face remains the worst area affected. My body is slowly getting more dryer as each new day begins. My morning routine consists of an epsom salt bath. For now, I only put some shea butter on my face and neck otherwise, I wouldn't be able to move/function, you know what I mean don't you?.
I've been refraining to moisturize the rest of my body (apart from my face) for the last few days hence the dryness. Wanting the body to remember how to moisturize by its self... the way its suppose too, right?. We shall see how it goes. For now the mood is low, not going to lie to you. However, I solider on.
Below are images from DAY 59,60 & 61.
| DAY 59 - Friday after coming home from work |
| DAY 60 - woke up to this in the morning |
| DAY 61 - Woke up to this |
Rumor has it DAY 90 is a possible shining light. Fingers crossed!.
Healing hugs to you all,
Gary
Thursday, 1 May 2014
Never, Ever Give Up...
OK, so this isn't exactly on topic with what we're all fighting every day. But... I guess the message and inspiration to take from this video is THE POWER OF MENTAL STRENGTH AND HUMAN PERSEVERANCE.
WARNING: The music is a bit cheddar cheesy but the video is cool.
Topical steroid withdrawal can put you in some dark places at times, quite literally it is a living hell. It's not just a physical battle you're in, but a mental one too. The pain can be unbearable at times. The countless hours of scratching, the constant flares and shedding of the skin. Nothing can quite prepare you for this. You just have to... accept it. Grit your teeth and bear with it.
Think of it as a game, a challenge. At the end of the road of this challenge, guaranteed, will make you a much stronger person. You'll appreciate the little things more. Be more humble about life.
So whatever day, month or year you're entering. Just remember one day soon, you'll wake up one morning and be free from this.
WE WILL WIN THIS WAR. NEVER, EVER GIVE UP.
Happy healing hugs to you,
Gary
One more thing...
WARNING: The music is a bit cheddar cheesy but the video is cool.
Topical steroid withdrawal can put you in some dark places at times, quite literally it is a living hell. It's not just a physical battle you're in, but a mental one too. The pain can be unbearable at times. The countless hours of scratching, the constant flares and shedding of the skin. Nothing can quite prepare you for this. You just have to... accept it. Grit your teeth and bear with it.
Think of it as a game, a challenge. At the end of the road of this challenge, guaranteed, will make you a much stronger person. You'll appreciate the little things more. Be more humble about life.
So whatever day, month or year you're entering. Just remember one day soon, you'll wake up one morning and be free from this.
WE WILL WIN THIS WAR. NEVER, EVER GIVE UP.
Happy healing hugs to you,
Gary
One more thing...
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| Just to take the edge off my dramatic post - Hope this makes you smile;) |
Monday, 28 April 2014
55 days in...
Well, here we are... DAY 55
Not long until I reach the 2 month milestone now, good times!. So what's been happening lately during my withdrawal process?.
Some symptoms I've been noticing in no particular order (positive and negative).
- Increased appetite for junk food (salts/sugars)
- Better sleeping
- Fatigue during the day, more energy at night - WTF?
- Intense itch cycles that last between 5 - 30 minutes (mostly at night)
- The past couple of days my body hasn't been as dry when I get up in the morning. Only my face remains dry
- Had my first full body sweat last night (DAY 54) followed by a scratch fest - positive or negative?
My face and hands continue to give me the most grief at the moment. I've ditched the moisturizer that I get from the chemist on prescription (Doublebase Dayleve Gel) as I felt it was doing me more harm than good. How's that? It started to sting when I applied it, thus making me more itchy. Plus, it wasn't making my skin retain moisture as much as it had done previously.
I found an excellent home made recipe for a moisturizer from a fellow TSW's blog that I've been using since Friday. It works great for me!. Only have to apply it a few times a day compared to the copious amounts of the other one that I had too. I know what works for one may not work for another. Just sharing what works for me.
Will update more about the effects the homemade moisturizer has on my skin.
Here is a link to the recipe if interested: http://misskittydefeatseczema.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/make-goo-not-war-homemade-moisturiser.html
SPECIAL THANKS to misskitty;)
Below are some images I took from Day 55
| Still a bit puffy and red in places. Better than the last post on day 47 though. |
| Vice versa Rudolph! :P |
| Oozy and crusty forehead. |
Thanks for viewing!.
Just thought I would add that I'm really very much appreciative to all of those who take the time to stop by and have a read of my blog. I know this withdrawal is gonna be a long road to go down for ALL of us. We must stick together, helping each other and keep fighting.
Remember to keep sharing the knowledge!.
Happy healing,
Gary
Friday, 25 April 2014
How do I know if I have Topical Steroid Addiction? (FAQs)
Hey folks,
Just copied these frequently asked questions about topical steroid addiction/withdrawal from the ITSAN forum. It contains lots of helpful and informal information that you may find useful during your own healing process.
Thanks for taking the time to visit. More updates and pictures to follow shortly.
Gary
Link to the ITSAN forum: http://forum.itsan.org/index.php
Q: How do I know if I have Topical Steroid Addiction (TSA)?
Note: you may only have one or two from the list below and still have TSA
A: 1) Topical Steroids (TS) stopped working on your eczema, you needed stronger ones to get the same result
2) When you stopped using TS you turned red, your skin burned, felt hot, swelled, and oozed, etc.
3) You had 'uncontrollable' spreading eczema
4) You could NOT identify any allergies/irritants that were causing the problem after many tests.
5) You did a skin biopsy that showed spongiotic dermatitis, or nothing of note.
6) You used TS regularly for a period of time that would make one become addicted (weeks to decades).
Q: Can I have withdrawal on only one part of my body?
A: Yes, if you used only a small amount on a small body part, then it is possible that your whole body may not go through TSW, however, the skin is one organ and often people will have “distant” steroid eczema, hives or bad reaction when they only used TS in one small area. Each person responds differently.
Q: What are the most common symptoms of TS Withdrawal (TSW)?
Note: these symptoms happen AFTER you have quit steroids but there is a chance that it will stop working before you quit and cause various symptoms as well. Again, not all symptoms are seen by everyone except the burn at some point. Some people only have one or two, some have all and more.
A: 1) Red, burning skin, usually appears within a week after stopping but can take longer and appear more than once (tell-tale red “under forearm with white unaffected palm, can take weeks to appear)
2) Swollen skin, swollen body parts containing fluid
3) Oozing skin
4) Itching skin
5) Raw, painful skin that can feels like a bad sunburn, sensitive to everything
6) Whole body skin gone "haywire". Spreading distant steroid eczema, hives, dry skin, itchy skin--even in places you never used. Skin is one organ, so when one area is messed up it can affect all your skin
7) Freezing body, feet, hands, etc. Body has trouble regulating temperature.
8 Exhaustion, insomnia, loss of appetite, increase of appetite
LATER IN THE PROCESS after a flare or at the end of TSW:
9) Super dry, plastic feeling skin
10) Shedding, flaking skin--tons of it.
11) Insane itching
12 Nerve pain often described as burning, ants crawling, zingers, electrical jolts, pins and needles and sparklers.
Q: How long does the withdrawal process take?
A: The initial withdrawal with the worst symptoms usually lasts a few weeks to months, depending on how long you used TS and the potency of the TS. Usage time, strength, and body part location of use will all affect the length of time to healing. One doctor believes that it may take 10-30% of the time TS were used to be fully healed. However, it does not mean you will have terrible symptoms during the entire withdrawal period. Many people have breaks or “quiet” periods during TSW and then a flare later. As the process progresses, usually flares become shorter and less intense but there are the exceptions this also. Everyday of TSW puts one closer to being healed.
Q: Does everyone really heal and become CURED?
A: Both doctors who have studies this condition have seen thousands of patients become fully cured of steroid red skin syndrome, "untreatable" (or steroid induced) eczema and recover from TSA/W. There are several people in our own forum that have been healed or are able to live life pretty normal again.
Q: What is a flare?
A: A flare can be many stages of the withdrawal at different times or combined. The initial flare usually appears in your skin as red, oozing, swollen, thick, very itchy and in an upward or “holding pattern” of bad skin. Flares can last from days to months and recur in later stages but usually don't last as long as early month flares. When a red, hot flare subsides, the skin becomes dry, flaking, shedding, feels like plastic, very rough and somewhat less itchy than when red, but still itchy. There are milder flares where the skin may get wet or rashy and very itchy and this can go on for some time after the harder flares. Some people never have a “quiet” period and may just have milder long-term TSW symptoms until the process ends.
Q: Can I work/go to school while going through withdrawal?
A: Most people are bed bound or housebound due to the extreme symptoms that occur when stopping steroids cold turkey. (which is the way that all the vets here have done it as they differ from oral steroids) It is best to prepare for this withdrawal time by taking leave and/or lightening your workload. One day we hope ITSAN’s work will accomplish TSW being recognized for short and long-term disability leave. Also, caregivers of children going through TSW will have to adjust their schedules. There is something in the USA called a 504 Plan which may be helpful to those in school. Here is the link to that information: http://specialchildren.about.com/od/504s/f/504faq1.htm
Q: If I have asthma will using an inhaler with steroids ruin my withdrawal recovery?
A: Dr. Rapaport says, "Could be a slight drawback- rather stop it, but if necessary for living we live with it There obviously is some small absorption- I also feel that the asthmatic’s bronchi get addicted".
Q: What's the difference between steroid withdrawal and regular eczema?
A: Until you are done with the withdrawal process it will be hard to tell the difference in original eczema and steroid induced eczema because when one is in TSW, eczema can appear anywhere on the body--even away from the site of TS use. Also, you cannot be sure that your “old” eczema was not steroid induced.
Q: Is it ever safe to use steroids and for how long?
A: All topical steroids are never to be used for more than two weeks in any one area of the body although many doctors and pharmacists don’t tell you this. It is also listed on steroid cream side-effects that thin skin areas like the face and genitals absorb 30 to 40 per cent more. Most eczema can be resolved on in children as they would normally grow out if it. Steroids should be used as a last resort because the side effects they carry are not well documented, due to the fact that they came to market before thorough research testing controls.
Q: Can I go back to using steroids temporarily?
A: Dr.Rapaport says no, this will delay a cure and all usage is cumulative. The blood vessels will “remember” and rebound could be even more severe.
Q: Should I wean myself off of steroids or stop cold turkey?
A: Cold turkey is what Dr. Rapaport recommends, based on what is said above.
Q: What do the lumps under my skin mean?
A: Many people in TSW have lumps in their skin. Many have had these checked by a doctor and they were found to be either a lymph gland fighting inflammation or a hair follicle that had been scratched and swollen. However, we recommend that each person check it out with their own doctor.
Q: Why does the burning feeling happen when I stopped steroids?
A: Your blood vessels have been constricted during the usage of TS and now being off they are “wide open” and inflamed. Also, it is thought that the high Nitric Oxide Levels can cause this burning sensation.
Q: What are the most common lubricants used by steroid withdrawal sufferers?
A: ITSAN forum does not advise one way or the other as far as what helps TSW since some people absolutely hate using any kind of moisture on their hurting skin but many of us chose a thin layer of a barrier for comfort during different stages. The ones most used are Vaseline, white palm oil, Sweet Bee Magic, Shea, coconut, jojoba or other pure oils. The skin is very sensitive during TSW, so spot testing is strongly advised and it's possible that more than one ingredient in a product can irritate and burn the skin. It's also been observed that using some type of barrier during the raw painful stages is preferred by several TSW sufferers and then as the skin heals enough, nothing on the skin feels best.
Certain doctors have recommended no moisture during TSW and while this method has been said to bring comfort by some patient's testimonies, others have tried it and experienced no benefit. It is important for the individual to pursue a treatment plan that is personally tailored to their own needs and comfort.
Q: What can I take for the itching and to help me sleep?
A: Aatarax, zyrtec, benadryl or even a anti-anxiety or sleeping aid medication.
Q: Is it normal to feel panicked or anxious?
A: Many people going through TSW have felt this way. It is a horrific, long process that involves the largest organ of the body and affects one’s appearance and ability to function normally. ITSAN forums or some type of support group are a great way to find comfort during an anxious time as that is how we helped each other along. ((Maybe this is why most dermatologists keep their patients on TS) ::).
Q: Is it normal to feel very depressed or suicidal?
A: Many people going through TSW have felt this way. It is a horrific, long process that involves the largest organ of the body and affects one’s appearance and ability to function normally. It is important to talk with a counselor, immediately, if you really feel this way.
Q: Why do I feel a pins and needles sensation or random "pin pricks"?
A: Not everyone has this symptom, but many do. This is believed to be blood vessels healing. There are thousands of nerves running though the skin and they too, have been affected. Meds that have seemed to help this are Ibuprofen, Gabapentin and Lyrica but again no one thing works for everyone.
Q: Are my nerves damaged?
A: No they are "waking up"and in time they fully recover.
Q: It is said that getting some sun on my skin will help me heal. Can you describe this in detail?
A: We try “cool sun” and one’s skin is only ready for this late in the process of TSW. It is after flare(s) have stopped and skin is dry, thicker and not pink/red. Some UV will help return dry, steroid damaged skin to normal. But be careful not to get too hot or too much sun. Time recommended is 10 minutes to start with and work up to 20.
Q: What are some recommendations to help the TSW process go more smoothly?
A: First, access all of the resources on our home page that explain the process and what is best to treat the symptoms. Most people decide to stop using topical steroids and then become overwhelmed with the intensity of symptoms they experience and were unprepared for. Depending on the frequency and duration of steroid use in your past expect a period of anywhere from 2-4 months in which your discomfort level may be so high that you may not be able to work or adequately take care of the family. If you haven't yet stopped using topical steroids, you have the advantage of getting a plan together first. Having a partner or caregiver to whom you can transfer your responsibilities will be very helpful. If you work, check on the feasibility of a leave of absence or short term disability. If you have a child who will be going through the withdrawal period, they probably won't be able to attend school for a while.
Preparing your environment-Your sleep pattern will become disrupted. This is primarily due to the out of balance cortisol levels you will experience after removing the artificial steroids from the body. You likely will find it difficult to go to sleep, frequently will awaken in discomfort, and will want to sleep very late. As such you will want to make sure your bedroom remains dark during the day. Black out your windows with aluminum foil, for example. Getting as much healing sleep as possible is critical to recovery, and you don't want to be awakened early in the morning by light. Also choose a couple of comfortable sheet sets you will discard when you are healed, as they will get stained with blood spots and will have to be washed frequently. Keep a vacuum by the bed to clean the area often due to extensive skin shedding.
Basic items to have on hand -
1) Domeboro solution (astringent for drying up oozing skin)
2) Emollient if preferrred (single ingredient product like coconut oil, petroleum jelly is best - you'll have to experiment to see what works best for you). Also, emollient needs may change depending on the stage your skin is in. It is generally accepted that moisturizers with a lot of ingredients are more likely to irritate the skin. Remember TSW is NOT eczema and treatments for eczema generally won't be effective and likely irritating.
3) ice packs - the larger the better, for wrapping the arms, neck, etc. Ice will reduce pain, swelling, and itching.
4) Antihistamine for itching. Most people take hydroxyzine which is a prescription antihistamine. Some take OTC Zyrtec or Benadryl.
Clothing - soft loose-fitting cotton. Some find that wearing long sleeves and pants keeps them from scratching so much while others find the clothing on the skin very uncomfortable and dress minimally. Your clothing preferences will change depending on the stage of withdrawal you're in.
Finally, attitude is very helpful. As the end of withdrawal is variable sometimes this can be frustrating. Take each flare one hour at a time, one day at a time. You may feel much better tomorrow.
Q: Why do I get symptoms on my skin in places I never put steroids?
A: The skin is one organ, so all of it can be affected, even though you used it in another area.
Q: What causes the intense itching?
A: The itching can be the worst symptom for many (See Itching Management on the Resources page at itsan.org). Deep layers of skin are healing, like when a wound is healing, it itches. There is also one theory that the motion of itching moves the lymph system and can be helpful in healing.
Q: Is it safe or good timing to withdraw during my pregnancy?
A: Most TS are pregnancy category C rated by the FDA, which is not a good safety rating. An expectant mother must weigh the damage steroids could do to the fetus against how hard the TSW process will be on her during her pregnancy.
Q: Are staph infections common during TSW?
A: No, but many doctors unfamiliar with TSW will think that the “ooze”, which can be yellow in color (or clear) is an infection. The doctor says, generally, we are not infected. We are all colonized with staph on our skin, so when a positive staph culture comes back, then many are diagnosed with staph, but are really not “infected”. It is recommended that during very red, oozing times to use Domeboro Solution (available in the drugstore) to keep skin clean. It is important to keep an eye on anything that looks infected and watch it for signs of increasing redness, heat, swelling and tenderness and seek immediate medical attention if these symptoms occur.
Q: Can a child take antihistamines and sedatives?
A: This should be discussed with your doctor, but there are antihistamines that are indicted for use in young children.
Q: What is the liquid that oozes out of my body?
A: This is serous exudate and thought to be the “interstitial” fluid that is pushed out when blood vessels are dilated. It is not the body detoxing.
Q: Does everyone that uses topical steroids get addicted over a long period?
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A: No, atopic types are the most likely to get addicted, but usage is cumulative, which is why some people take a short time to get addicted and others take decades.
Q: Why am I allergic to things that never bothered me before?
A: Your skin in TSW in simply super sensitive and after withdrawal it will return to normal. That is why allergy testing during TSW is not considered accurate.
Q:Will my eczema come back after I'm healed of TSW?
A: Most likely not, but you won’t know until TSW is done. Then you can determine more accurately what is causing it. And a bit of eczema is much easier than TSA and Steroid Induced Eczema and the damage steroids do to your health.
Q: Is there a list of doctors that treat TSA/TSW besides Dr. Rapaport?
A: We are working on creating a network of doctors that can treat those going through TSW. In the meantime we recommend that you find a good General Practitioner and take some of our ITSAN resources along.
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